i should stop telling myself that "i'm fine",
because i'm not.
i used to think that by telling myself that repeatedly, everything will be okay.
but obviously, it's not.
maybe it's okay to not be fine. i'm human anyways. and my feelings get confused somehow.
just wished that it wouldn't affect me so much.
and it's time to accept that people who left, best friend/close friend whoever, are not coming back.
and well, everything we had, really had reduced to nothing.