Stuck.

It's already the 2nd week of September and I have no idea what I'm doing.

Sigh.

Everything is changing quicker than the Melbourne weather and I'm unsure how I'm dealing/facing it. There are 3 main things in my life that I need to deal with right now - Graduation, Migration and Job Hunting. All 3 are progressing slowly and I can feel the pressure building and I don't like it very much.

It has been difficult in the job hunting world. Every person I've spoken to unabashedly pointed out that they aren't seeing patients as they used to and appointment books have been left empty. Such news just depress you even further. There's not much to look forward to after graduation, is there?

Sometimes the thought of heading home doesn't seem like a bad idea anymore.

I miss my boyfriend, family and friends. I miss the food, the people and the familiarity.

Standing at the cross road now, just as I had 5 years ago when I took a leap of faith and took up the scholarship, what should I do?

Note to Future Self.

When a man tells you the reason that he stayed on for so long in a relationship with you, is because, that he loves you, he is a keeper.

:)

Exhausted.

Oh man, it's already the end of June and it's the middle of winter, which means it's furreeezzzzinggg now :( it's so cold that my toes felt like they are going to drop off any second.

We are now into the 1st week of Hospital Rotation for our final year placement. It has been interesting so far, going for consults with surgeons in the Royal Children Hospital and Royal Melbourne Hospital. Unfortunately we are placed in emergency services with RDHM on weekends now and it is very depressing indeed. Imagine having your weekend taken away! :(

Le housemate is back in KL and I'm home alone again. It's getting really quiet around here :( sigh.

Lack of sleep and weird patients don't make me a happy person.

CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOMEEEEE

:(

6 years :)

Happy 6th year anniversary baby :)

We've been through so much and yet, we are still together. That speaks for itself really. Long distance is never easy. Ily v much so :) ❤

Zouk 2012

:)

Christmas dinner 2012



Hoi An, Vietnam 2012 :)

Hope there are many more to come :)

Zzz

Okay. Today is officially the worst day ever, albeit our 6th year anniversary.

One of my dent gfs just texted me and told me her bf broke up with her.

And I knew how much she liked and cherished this relationship.

:(((((

Far out.

Just received the most retarded call ever.

What the fuck.

So, this inconsiderate fuck of a course mate I have just called in for a favour.

She "booked" her patient in to PC tomorrow and obviously, Dr.E isn't in and she had to reschedule her booking to next week, which coincides with my PC session. She thought she got away with it but I knew she was fucking lying. I was in the computer lab today and I bumped into her group mate and she had GP today. I'm sure she had to see this patient/ tried to book her in for PC which she couldn't tomorrow and hence booked her in next week and dump the responsibility on others.

What the fuck.

If the pt has pain and need emergency treatment, which is what PC is about, that's fair enough. But this little bitch has the nerve to call me, and ask me to fabricate 2 temporary crowns for her patient. HELLO?! I'm not responsible for the shit you do to your patient. WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND CEMENTS A CROWN WITH TEMPORARY CEMENT AND VASELINE?! Obvious-fucking-ly it's going to come off?!?!?!!?!?!??!??!? DUHHHH?!?!??!?!

Apart from that, she conveniently throw in a, "Oh, if you have time, can you take a bite reg for me? PVS would do," oh my fucking god. Are you retarded or sth? YOU booked in YOUR patient and it's YOUR responsibility to be there and take care of her treatment, little bitch. YOU DO NOT dump YOUR picky (yes she had the nerve to tell me her pt is picky and had complained about her demo before) patient onto others and expect ppl to do the shit you ask for.

SERIOUSLY.

Just go fuck yourself asshole.

I'm going to make temporary crowns out of resin composite, etch, prime and bond onto the tooth and slab it on you little bitch.

Fuck this shit.

GAH

>:(((((

PISSED OFF OMG.

Why didn't I call my pt yesterday >:(

Shouldn't have listened to you -___-

ijffnekfnekfnefne

What a waste of my GP session. GRR

Not a good day.

PS: It's our 6th anniversary today. I should be more elated than this. FTS.

Can't wait

for Swedish House Mafia's One Last Tour in Melb tomorrow :))))))

Alchemyyyyy.

It was alchemy
To sing to me your freedom song
To make love where there was none
Alchemy, now it's all gone
She is the golden one

Getting so pumped up for Above and Beyond this Saturday! :DDDDDDD

Weekend.

The long weekend came and went past ever so quickly. It's already Monday :'((( It was pretty eventful over the few days. Spent the night in on Friday, watching tennis and lamenting over Federer's lost to Murray in the Australian Open. Le sigh. Really couldn't stand Murray's snarky face and obnoxious smirk that I turned the tv off when Fed was losing in the 5th set.

Saturday was spent visiting Jeff and to check on him to see that he's okay after the intense surgery he had. The swelling has gone down but he still has pretty puffy cheeks. He's OD-ing on codeine and ibuprofen (painkillers and antiinflammatories) plus taking amoxy (antibiotic) so hopefully he'd recover soon. We cooked dinner at his place, along with Jon-with-a-mole and Dawn. Honey and soy chicken was yum :D and it was so easy to cook. Just marinate it with garlic, ginger, honey and soy sauce, and shove it into the oven till the chicken's cooked through- voilaaaa! :)))))

Davy had his house warming on Sunday and I made mango, avocado and lettuce salad :))) the recipe was really simple, from Taste.com.au and it was really good. Met up with the other Singaporeans in the group and it was a good catch up to see what everyone's doing. Since we are in 5th year now, we are all scattered around the place and the only time we get to see each other is when we are all in a gathering or probs during back to base week in April.

The mango, avocado and lettuce salad :))

Caught up with Kech today at Duke's on Chapel Street. He left his previous practice in Swan Hill and moved back to the city. I think it's great to have the seniors back haha it's great hanging out with them and through what they discuss, live in some of the experiences they have had and advice they got to give. Hopefully work goes well for him and he gets to have a full week soon after his boss buys another surgery :)

My swan latte art 

Poached egg with moroccan salmon, potatoes, tomatoes, dills  salad :D

Kech's pulled pork sandwich :)

And that wasn't too bad for a long weekend hey :))

Change

Time and again I'll have the inkling to go for a change in blog templates. From the previous blogskins to the half arsed,self customized HTML links, I'm introducing my newest blog template today! Blogger has made such a change in the last few years and it's getting way easier to customize your own blog template, rather than having to figure out what does "br" mean.

:)

Yes. I'm very bored. Hahaha. Clinic has been great and because I'm currently rostered to the Dental Hospital, I don't really have a full day sesh, more like half day clinics and generally I'm pretty free. Pretty much trying to fill up my extra time though. Don't really want to volunteer to PC and suck up, although it can be really busy in the morning sometimes. The last time I was there I did 3 exos and a 15 extirpation. Those were kinda exciting I suppose. But in exchange, you'd have to listen to the person in charge going on and on about her spider bites, cat stories and what not.

I've been cooking much more at home nowadays and that's a good change :) it's good as you can control what you eat and I'm trying to be healthier than I was in previous years - eating more veggies, a fruit a day, yoghurt etc and cutting down on white rice.

In a nutshell, I'm looking for a change this year. Not like a drastic-I-am-turning-into-a-vegan, but more of getting on with a healthier diet. Now, maybe I should work on getting my exercise mode on again.

Happy 'Straya Day everyone! :)

It's nearly the end of January!!! OMG how time flies DDDDD: It's really daunting to think that this is the final year of Uni and fingers crossed, I'll be graduating this year DDDDD: I'm so unprepared for the real world!!

Oh dear.

Every Wednesday during summer, there's a food market - Suzuki Market held at Victoria market and we (Alice, Jero, Chris) headed down for dinner after Paeds. Food wasn't too bad, but it wasn't the greatest or tastiest I've ever had and was pretty pricey as well. We had pork ribs, sausages, potato rings (!!!!! OMG SO YUM), seafood zazuela (some Spanish seafood with rice thingy), banana and strawberry crepes with nutella etc. Then we received a text and photo from Jeff and he looked like a swollen balloon.  W.T.F. He had his wizzies taken out in theatre at RDHM and his face looked like someone gave him a fist swing. It was bruised and swollen, especially around his lower left jaw. Apparently when they were trying to extract his upper 28, the cryer tip broke and they took ages to fish it out. Usually it only take 1/2 to 1 hour to remove all 4 wizzies but his took like 2.5 hours and had to have 2 litres of saline and iv amoxy. Holy shit. Went to visit him with Chris and it was an uphill battle to walk really quick with a full stomach. Or rather I'm just unfit. Lol

Potato Rings! :D 

Seafood Zazuela

Sangria makes the world go round.

On a side note, I made a kid cry today. Yes. I'm that horrible :'((( This 12 year old kid never had a filling done in her life, hence never had any local anaesthesia before, a.k.a. "The Needle" as her mum kept emphasizing to her and that obviously wasn't helping the situation. With Dr. Loo's help, we kind of desensitized her and kept constantly talking to her, distracting her. When I put the topical on, she was already wincing. Then the needle came. She started to gulp and choke for some reason. We tried to calm her down and asked her to breathe through her nose and then she snorted /sneezed. I think she was quite embarrassed as then, the tears came. She was sobbing, not entirely crying like a baby, but still choking up with tears. Poor kid. But yeah that's for not taking care of your teeth!!!!! Well, at least the filling I did for her was pretty good. The kid doesn't even know which tooth I filled. She said she can't see it. LOLOL.

So yeah. Seeing kids just mentally and physically drain you and before you know it, it's 5pm. Time to pack up and have some KFC. Because every paediatric block can get so depressing that you deserve some finger lickin' good chicken.

Strange.

Just had an early dinner catch up with the Dent girls at Thanh Ngah Nine, which is an amazing Vietnamese place up in North Richmond. Food was great as usual and we had our usual favourites :)

It's just strange on so many levels how I'm close to this person and I just find her, strange. In recent months, I just find it hard to communicate with her. Not as in having a conversation per se, but more of seeing her as a close friend. We used to be close but now it's on a different level of "closeness", borderline fake I suppose? Not sure what happened actually. But just felt that she's so blunt sometimes and she doesn't know that she's making others feel uncomfortable. And this realization isn't just from me, but from other ppl as well. Also, like the way she conveys herself, is like a -know-it-all. No one likes a person like that.

I don't know. Not sure is this jealousy? LOL but I really am not jealous of her. I know that. Sometimes I can't even be bothered to have a conversation with her because she's getting so snide and arrogant. We'll see how this goes. Wishing her all the best towards graduation, but I for sure wouldn't share much info with her anymore, since that's how she's treating me as well. Secretive and assertive. That's it.

It's a pity though and to be honest, I don't really know how to feel about this as I thought we are really good friends. But yeah, this is real life I suppose. Survival of the fittest.

Happy 2013! :)

Evidently, it has been nearly a year since I've blogged. How time flies! I'm now in 5th year and life is pretty awesome :))) well, apart from having the stress of looking for the perfect case presentation, everything else is running smoothly.

We start really early this year, as all final year students do :((( It was very difficult to leave home this time, knowing that I may not be going back to KL for a year. Leaving the family and bf behind was hard, and I did choke up a few tears before stepping pass immigration. Sigh. Just can't wait to graduate. Fingers crossed that I'd pass this year as well as I could and becoming Dr. Ng in approx 10 months! :))

Also, my MacBook Pro is here! :D Been waiting to get this baby for ages and I'm loving it! The trackpad gestures are amazing and everything is pretty handy. Only thing is getting used to using a Mac OS system in comparison to years of experience in using Windows.

Okay this is really gay. Just found out that my MacBook Pro can't connect to my iPhone via bluetooth. Apparently it's a glitch on the new Mountain Lion OS or something. -_____- SIF this is happening!

Anyway, have a good weekend everyone (and by that I meant you, Asher lol) and wishing you all a happy 2013! :)

Inconsiderate people should just die.

Seriously.

Especially those who turn up the music even if they know you're sleeping

Or self invite to your home and play mahjong while you have to study.

Fucking hell.

Just bc you don't have to study doesn't mean you can do wtv you like.

Brain Problem.

Ahhhhhh! I haven't blogged in agggggggggggggesss omg. I'm so sorry I'd neglected you :( But I think my only reader is Asher. Hahahaha! *waves at Asher* Hope you're coping well with Med at USyd!!! Come back to Melb and we'll hang :))))

Anyway. Yes I need to rant.

I've moved into a new apartment with 2 new housemates and lol, the drama has just begin.

It always starts with money drama. One of my housemates have a brain problem. He owes me money, not a large amount I'd say, but he rather pay AUD 110 to buy a pair of new speakers, which I'm sure he can live without, than to pay me back 20 AUD for groceries what I've bought and paid beforehand.

Seriously?!?!

And well now he expects me to pay for whatever he needs, be it brunch or dinner and he promised to return me the sum when his daddy sends him money. Okay. I'm sorry but I'm not a loan shark nor an ATM machine. I don't have extra cash to spare and even if I do, why would I lend it to you and KNOW that you won't pay me back?

DO I LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT TO YOU?

?!!!!!!

And he gets emo/depressed with his "under achievements" and "need to make his parents proud". Frankly my dear, if you really intend to make your parents proud of you or whatever you need to do to boost that sad, minuscule self esteem of yours, please do something about it. Go find a job, even a part time one to fill up your time while waiting for a job interview or wtv. Watching 3 seasons of Modern Family ain't gonna land you a job. That's really a no brainer, Sherlock.

There's only so much empathy or sympathy that you can gain from people without having to prove yourself what a true friend you are. And now to be honest, I see you as a selfish boyfriend who can't be fucked about how everyone feels apart from your own feelings. And it's downright self centred. Also, who the fuck are you to tell someone else that he has a problem when you yourself have a fucking big one too?

Buck the fuck up seriously.

Melt Down

Omggg why did I choose this course???!!!

The stress is so overwhelming.

PLEASE LET IT BE GOOD.

:(

Been going through a biphasic emotional rollercoaster. Sigh.

Dent is really taking a toll on me. Thursday's paper was just..... wtf? Can't believe I studied so hard for it and because of the random questions that I got screwed over :((( Well it's undeniable that it's my own fault bc I didnt do my run through ritual with the CDH lectures. But also because I ran out of time with discussions and what not. Definitely changing the way I study next year. It's really depressing when all the effort you put in for a paper doesn't even minutely reflect the knowledge we know for that particular subject.

And people who always complain on how freaking hard their subject is should just stfu. You think 12 weeks of lectures is bad for 1 exam. We have 3 subjects (36 lectures at least) crammed into 1 paper. And we are still expected to know everything. I'm so tired of reading people tweeting about their stupid exam and how difficult it to finish 12 lectures. Bitch please. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO COMPLAIN.

Zzzz. I'm just in a really crappy mood right now.

Last exam - Oral exam/viva, which is like a case presentation to 2 dentists and we have to diagnose and treatment plan for the patient. They can ask you anyyyyyyyyything from 2nd year to 3rd year. So death is with me.

STRESS.

Housemate Drama.

When I was studying in Frank Tate yesterday with the FT family, Kev wasn't there. It wasn't that surprising, considering what a sloth he is. lol.

After dinner, Chris pulled me aside and was telling me about this situation he's facing with Kev. So it all starts off like this:

We had an Oral Med exam last Thursday and it was stressballs. OMG. One of the most stressful exams I've encountered. Luckily we were given 4 questions to prepare for and all of us are just counting on the questions to appear in the exams. So between Tuesday and Wednesday, Kev (not surprising at all) asked for 2 for Chris' essays through Facebook chat and having stated the classic, "If you don't want to, you can say no". Obviously this puts Chris into a dilemma. If he gives, it's against his principle and if he doesn't, he's considered a bad friend. So he did.

But he was furious and sent Kev an email stating so and that he should be more giving than taking all the time. Which I had to agree with, because K is a leech, literally. He would extend his body across the study table like some freaking phagocyte (excuse the nerd in me) and his ears will grow into Dumbo sized ones to listen to other people's output on a particular discussion topic and he'll never give any info in return.

Well long story short, K made C apologize for not being graceful about sending his answers to him (wtf?) and that he should be more tolerant and more competitive (double wtf?) lol. So yeah. C is hurt of course and now it's really tensed back home bc well they live under the same roof.

Mmm. I need to listen to K's side before making any judgements but for now, it's not looking swell. Not gonna take sides or wtv but some people just need to get a good knock on his skull to remind him what is right and wrong and how he overstepped the boundaries this time. BIG TIME.

Chyeahhh. My thoughts exactly.

By My Side

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking, 
I am waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take, 
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you, 
I just wanna kiss you, 
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this, 
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever, 
right here by my side.


David Choi's By My Side


Mmm. The downsides of being in an LDR - When you feel lonely, you can't just give your partner a call and wait for them to turn up at your doorstep, nor could you turn up at theirs. Simply because they are a gazillion miles away.

:(

Shin is in Singapore for the weekend for his sister's wedding, which is actually really exciting :) I love weddings! Yeah random I know. If I've never mentioned this in my blog before, well there you go. I absolutely love weddings. I love how I can still believe that true love do exist and all these years of growing up has yet to rob me of these magical moments that I truly believe in :)

If I had a choice, without having to think of an amazing future career as a dentist, I will definitely be a wedding planner. Lol. Yeah judging from how disorganized I am (I'm sure you can tell from the last minute panic mode in studying lol), I think it would be one of my true passions. Sure, Dentistry is a glorified career albeit the nauseous thought that run through your heads about how disgusting a person's mouth is, it is a financially rewarding career. But I didn't choose this career path because I loved it or that I'm crazily in love with teeth. Trust me, I know some of my coursemates who wouldn't shut up about teeth. It was just the right timing with the great opportunity that I decided to jump onto the bandwagon. So yeah. Clinic sessions are fun and I adorrrrre my patients but there will be times when I doubt whether I'm doing the right thing. We only live once, and I want to do what I absolutely love, not just what I can do well in.

Anyway, I've been missing the bf and it doesn't help that I can't speak to him :( I'm sure he's prolly dead from drinking lol.

Why is it so hard to be in a long distance relationship?

Le sigh.